I kept giving it away.
It was small at first.
A smile. An encouraging nod.
Phases asking, wondering, and helping a person
Sometimes it wasn’t even willing.
Nonetheless I gave it away.
Then it was large.
What I gave away.
A bond of trust
themselves to others.
It didn’t hurt, at first.
It scared me a bit.
Then it became a whirlwind
I was cracked, I was not replenishing.
The fragile state I had become.
They all continued their lives, without seeing my pain.
Everything I gave, those piece of myself, had attached to other people.
The people I helped, didn’t notice the vulnerability scarcely keeping me upright.
I had given more than I could, because I knew they needed help.
But now with the coin flipped, they didn’t see I needed help.
And then the light started to shine, through the cracks.
It couldn’t before.
Too much of me, my small un- efficient armor that I thought protected me,
was only keeping this light from shinning.
I didn’t need the pieces back, they weren’t mine to keep.
The people who I had encouraged, helped.
They carried those piece, briefly with them
Before giving them away.
Giving away themselves, to encourage others.
So I decided to give, and give largely.
Until my form, you couldn’t see.
But this light bursted forth, and gave faster than I ever could.
It gave without hesitation, without thought of vulnerability.
It loved deeper and made me stronger.
I looked up, and realized He shined through me.